and it's over now :(

yap langsung aja deh hiks hiks hiks...........................

tepat tanggal 22 september 2011, ini adalah kamis kelabu buat saya dimana hubungan saya sama amel udah berakhir. sedih banget bangetan !!!!!!!!! bayangin, 4 hari lagi anniv bos ! dan nanti tanggal 26 kita harusnya ngerayain 3monthanniversary :(

pasti di benak kalian ada yang bertanya tanya "kenapa putus?" "siapa yang mutusin?" "dia kenapa ?" kenapa harus berakhir ?" "kenapa semua ketua kpk terseret kasus hukum ? aaaargggghhhhh"

oke pertanyaan terakhir tadi emang bener bener gapenting...

setelah putus dan mendengarkan wejangan dari mendiang amel alah mendiang -___________-
saya pun akhirnya gabisa tidur, dan teriak teriak tanpa suara di gudang mesiu yang di sebut kamar..
akhirnya 04.45 saya bangun dan mencoba memulai hari dengan ceria tapi hasilnya nihil :( serasa gapercaya dan pingin ngegigit gagang wajan di rumah... tapi apalah daya, nasi sudah menjadi bubur, ayam sudah menjadi opor, dan sapi sudah menjadi gepuk, mau gimana2 juga tetep harus ikhlas ! \m/
kalo jodoh kan ga kemana, dan saya yakin kalo saya bisa buat dia balik ke saya huahahaha

tapi, jauh di dalem hati, beneran deh masih ga percaya... and i cant believe that its over.....
thanks for the wonderful 3 months dear ! i love you and i miss you so damn much ! and  one thing that you should to know, no one gonna love you like i do :')

#np Maroon 5 - Just a Feeling


I watched you cry, bathe in sunlight by the bathroom door
You said you wish you did not love me anymore
You left your flowers in the backseat of my car
The things we said may have left permanent scars

Obsessed, depressed at the same time
I can't even walk in a straight line
I'm a light in the dark, no sunshine
No sunshine, no sunshine

She cries, "This is more than goodbye
When I look into your eyes
You're not even there"

It's just a feeling, just a feeling, just a feeling that I have
Just a feeling, just a feeling that I have
'Cause it's just a feeling, just a feeling, just a feeling
(I can't believe that it's over)

You've hit your low
You've lost control, you want him back
You may not believe me but I gave you all I had

Undressed, confessed that you're still mine
I rolled around in a bed full of tears and I
I'm still laying in the dark, no sunshine
No sunshine, no sunshine


She cries, "This is more than goodbye
When I look into your eyes
You're not even there"

It's just a feeling, just a feeling, just a feeling that I have
Just a feeling, just a feeling that I have
'Cause it's just a feeling, just a feeling, just a feeling
(No, I can't believe that it's over now)
It's just a feeling, just a feeling that I have

So much to say it's not the way she does her hair
It's the way she seems to stare right through my eyes
And in that darkest day that she refused to run away
From love she tried so hard to save

It's just a feeling, just a feeling, just a feeling that I have
Just a feeling, just a feeling that I have
It's just a feeling
It's just a feeling, just a feeling, just a feeling that I have
Just a feeling, just a feeling that I have

It's just a feeling, just a feeling, just a feeling that I have
(I can't believe that it's over)
Just a feeling, just a feeling that I have
(I can't believe that it's over)

And I can't believe that it's over.....






:(